mom, i'm very sorry if i always broke your heart, but please don't make me like this ,when allah want give you hidyah for all of this? i always try to be the best of doughter,but why you not support?, you always find my mistake,after i pray i'm always doa for you , i always talk to allah for lembutkan hati, for panjangkan umur,and murahkan rezeki for all my family, why allah not show my doa? i'm always cry when saw a few mother and her doughter,play and make joke together,when we want do a sme like that mom? .it's now ican accept a qodo and kadar,allah. it just my choice cannot do maksiat. yaallah please help me to accept my wish! please allah,nevermind it's just mujahadah . i will try to changeyour kindness and touch my heart strongly :(